Yes, that happened

Once you've been betrayed you will have a "before" and "after" life with many triggers throughout the remainder of your relationship. Pictures, memories, cards, gifts, and letters from your "before" life together will now leave you angry, sad, confused and question everything about your lives and events together. Everything from your "after" life together will … Continue reading Yes, that happened

Within those days, something has changed

It's been 2,025 days since D-Day #1 and 1,948 days since D-day #2. It has been 2,036 days since he last acted out. Within those days, I asked questions, repeated the questions, pained from the answers, and eventually healed enough where I no longer see him as the man who did this. Within those days, I completely rid … Continue reading Within those days, something has changed

He thinks I should write again *TRIGGER WARNING*

After being told that writing may be what was keeping me present in the trauma, I took a hiatus. Unfortunately the trauma is still present and now he thinks writing again may help. So, here I am. Trauma still very much present and at times, still very much in shock that he could do what … Continue reading He thinks I should write again *TRIGGER WARNING*

Keeping myself in check

With all of the stress in life lately, and frankly, over the last at least 4 years with Mr. Perfect, I don't know how I've kept it all together. One thing I've noticed since Mr. Perfect has been home from his 3 1/2 week stay at the hospital is that I'm overly critical of him … Continue reading Keeping myself in check

Friends and Values

It's been a while since I posted an update, and it's mostly because things are still improving 🙂 big yay! Recovering from the betrayal nightmare takes a lot of time, patience and effort from both partners. It's not 100% yet, I still look at him at times and can't believe he did what he did, … Continue reading Friends and Values

Forgiveness of the human vs. Acceptance of your lovers heinous acts

I've been thinking a lot about the forgiveness struggle we betrayed all face if we are attempting a reconciliation after the discovery of betrayal. It is a HUGE struggle and is why I believe we feel "stuck" most of the time. The struggle feels like a torturous tug of war of emotions, and our internal … Continue reading Forgiveness of the human vs. Acceptance of your lovers heinous acts

I finally laughed

As we continue to navigate through this shit hole Mr. Perfect dug for us, and as I continue to process and become desensitized to all of the trauma that ensues after one is betrayed, I realized that maybe joking about how utterly ridiculous his actions were may bring more peace and less pain to me, … Continue reading I finally laughed